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______ was always happy. No matter the situation, she always was optimistic. When others were down, she cheered them up, even bought them ice cream. Everyone went to her for advice for their problems, and she would help. Always smiling.

Always....

I never really knew ______ on a personal level. She was just someone that was friends with everyone. That didn't stop me from liking her...no, loving her. Her (h/l) (h/c) hair that shone in the sunlight and her beautiful (e/c) eyes. Her kindness and happiness rubbed off on others, and I thought that was a wonderful gift to possess. Sad? Has she ever been sad? No _______ can't be sad! That's just not how she is.

Not sad....

That's what we all thought. _______ is so energetic, _______ is so happy! There is not way she could be sad! No one believed that _______ could ever feel sorrow. I was with them, until that one day.

One day....

It was a rainy day and school had just ended. The hallways quickly emptied and I was walking along to go home when I saw _______. For some reason, he hair did not have it's usual shine. She was slowly putting her books into her bag and hesitated to close her locker.
"Hey _______!" I called out. It seemed to jolt her and suddenly she was her cheerful self again.
"Oh hey Romano!" she waved as she slammed her locker. She waited for me to catch up before we began to walk towards the exit of the school.
"What are you still doing here _______? I thought you would have had plans for the weekend!" I laughed. ______ gave a small chuckle, but I noticed a wave of sadness pass over her (e/c) eyes before it was quickly pushed away.

Sadness....

_______ said nothing and kept walking. We were nearing the door now, and she seemed to walk slower, as if she did not want to leave. At the door, she completely halted.
"_______?" I asked. She was shaking and had grown pale.
"What's wrong?" I almost shouted, dropping my back pack and running in front of her. I gripped her shoulders and gave her a little shake when she didn't respond. She looked at me with the most pain in her eyes, I could hardly bear to stare at her.

Pain....

Suddenly, tears began to fall from the (e/c) orbs. First slow, then rapidly and more of them. She was in a full out melt down.
"I am so sad and people cant even see it! I try to be optimistic to make others feel better, but what about me? I get nothing! I don't feel better! I always have to do more and more and I never can win the approval of my parents! That's why I decided to try to be optimistic about everything and to put on a mask! But it hurts! It hurts!" She sobbed, falling into my arms.

Hurt....

I was shocked. I couldn't say a word as she cried about more stuff that caused her pain and sadness, but felt she couldn't express because she was the optimistic one, the one that was never sad. I never realized a person could hurt as much as she was. I finally got to my senses and began to rub her back and tell her it was ok. I had never been in this situation, but I had seen movies and thought that this is what I could do. Her tears stained my shirt, but I didn't care.

Tears....

Eventually, she calmed down and wiped her eyes with the remaining tears. I looked down at her with love shining in my eyes as I whispered two words into her ear.
"It's Ok." She understood the meaning behind the short sentence and gave me a sweet hug.
"Thank you Romano. I needed someone to listen, to understand. Thank you." I breathed in her sweet perfume and got the urge to kiss her. I leaned down and softly pressed my lips into hers, ravishing the softness of the delicate skin. Her (e/c) eyes widened at first, but then she melted into the kiss and kissed me back. When we broke away, she smiled big and said three words I have been waiting to here for a long time.
"I love you!" I knew that she knew that I was there to stay and that I could be her shoulder to cry on when she couldn't bear the burdens she carried anymore.

It's ok....
This is a bit more deep that what I write, but hey, sometimes people need this to be said.

For all those people out there who feel they can't go on anymore, It's ok.

Trust in friends to help carry your burden, hell message me and I'll help!

But seriously, it's ok. It will get better even if it seems like it isn't going to or hasn't been better for a long time.

It will get better. Patience is a virtue.

I don't own Romano or you
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kittykatrocks12 Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Deep like the earth molten core

I really like this
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EvilAngel3 Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is so like me. Always happy and nobody knows that Im a broken down mess on the inside. I love this! :tombstone: I died of fluff and sweetness.
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Ender-Chibi Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014  Student Artist
This is a lot like me. I was always so happy, cheering others and helping them, even when I couldn't help myself. I was so happy, no one ever thought I could be sad. Every one thought my smile was permentaly on my face. But beneath the mask , was someone who didn't know who she was. I don't know who I am. Beneath the fake and forced smiles, was tears and pain. There was suffering and hate. I can't trust others as easily. I didn't believe that people could be kind to others. That the words kind, happy, love were fake and made up. I got better when I met some people who had been hurt and been opposed. I still wear a mask, to this day. I can't bring myself to smile. I can still fool others, with the thing they call happiness. The tears and painful memories still stand, slowly tearing me apart. And yes, I still cry. I know life won't get better. But I know that sappy quotes won't make someone get better. What people need, is someone to stand by them. Someone who understands and listens. They need someone to bring a smile to their face. Despite my horrible memories, I found my purpose in life. I need to have others smile. That is my life goal.

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If you are reading this and you think you have no one, your wrong.

I'm here. Every step of the way.

If you need someone to talk to, message me. I am constantly checking my messages. If I don't answer right away, know I am still there.

IF YOU ARE A SELF HARMER AND/OR THINKING OF SUICIDE

Don't. You. Freaking. Dare

I will always be here. ALWAYS. I live everyone.

Draw a black and purple butterfly on your arm for me, and every time it fades, draw a new one.

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Message me if you need it.

I love you. Everyone of you.

Inside and out.
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Student Digital Artist
My feels
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Ender-Chibi Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2014  Student Artist
Sorry! *glomp*
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lettheworldbreath Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Wow this was so deep. I love it a lot. I do stuff like this a lot. I have a serious big sister complex so I always carry the burdens of the world. I do believe I have some form of depression. I mean I don't have nearly as many problems as anyone that has commented on this page and GOD how I wish I could just fix it all for them. It's just not fair and I hate it. Does that make me weird? I hope not. I mean I despise hearing about peoples problems but it's not because I don't care it's just that I hate having to know that innocent person out there is hurting and I just wish I could make things better. But in a way, it's comforting to know what the problem is cuz now all the cards are on the table and the problem can be assessed and"dealt with" (? If you get what I mean right?) But that's one of the things I really like about deviant art is that no-one is afraid to be honest about the shit they're going through and since the majority of people here are helpful and so full of life and vitality and love it's hard not to find true- blue friends. I mean, I will always have my friends from school and my family and my boyfriend but I know that I can always turn to deviant art too and that makes me really friken happy. I know this comment is probably way too long for your liking but I was going through comments and they gave me feels (not to be stupid but yea) and I just really needed to vent for a bit. Thank you so much for that story.
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Student Digital Artist
That's ok I didnt really want my feels anyways

Thank you for the compliment though
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lettheworldbreath Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
You're welcome!:) (Smile) 
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ChizzyLizzy Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
You just wrote my life story... To my friends, I'm the happiest, fun ,sarcastic girl that's never sad! Yeah, right... I hate myself, I put on a mask to make others happy, I cut myself, but no one notices, since I have that permanent fake smile on my face. I have no true friends, and my only 'friend' is my depression since it shows the real me... I can't be sad for even a few minutes or my mom will think I still cut myself (I still do...) and I have to go to therapy. I feel like ending it all sometimes... But I'm to much of a chicken to do that...
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I am here for you bro
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ChizzyLizzy Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you, finally I got such I good story a bawled my eyes out! Amazing job!!
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michiganlovesromano Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This story is my life in a nut shell I put on a mask to hide my emotions and with that mask is a smile behind the mask is a girl who lost some -no lots of family members and is almost always crying a 18 year old fem Romano look alike  thing is my parents love my neace more than me and I sing out side cut my arm with a paperclip knife I made and no one cares sometimes I just want to die. When I sing outside I cry after singing because my neace punches and kicks me she also said that I suck at singing that's why I cry all of this is why my life is like this story..... T.T ....
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Aww darling I am here for you. I am sure your voice is lovely and screw your niece she is an asshole. Don't worry about what they think, because as long as you know you are great, then who gives two flips about what others think? I'm here for you.
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michiganlovesromano Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for saying that it really helped.
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
You are so very welcome! Please come to me if you ever need someone to talk to! PM me if it gets bad where you need to talk a lot, which is ok
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BBlover01 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Greenland: This reminds me of me.... -folds arms looks away-
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Mirviana Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah, this story reminds me a lot of myself when I would always try to carry everyones burdens and sorrows, while managing my own.
It would've been terrible if I didn't have amazing friends to help me when I needed it like I did with them, so this story hits me on a very personal level.
Great job, I loved it! :)
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you
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Mirviana Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome ^_^
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Rish-36-Bitch Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
So inspiring!! I'm usually not really outspoken but my parents make me be all optomistic all the time. One time a puked for 30 minutes in the bathroom at school and I call my mom telling her I'm sick but she just says You'll be fine... This is like real life for me well except I don't get him in real life.
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I'm happy you like it! And if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm always on DeviantArt~!
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Rish-36-Bitch Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I am ALWAYS on here, it is like I'm married to my laptop
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
lol
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Rish-36-Bitch Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Nice story though
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AdmiralAsshat Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student General Artist
I know I'm not some high and mighty counsellor or anything but maybe... You should start being yourself rather than putting and a huge mask right? What's the point of not being yourself? Try speaking out more. Sometimes it helps, and with the whole puking thing I'm sorry like really sorry to say but I think your mom may be a little insensitive. I hope I have helped you in someway. God bless you and it's always the darkest days before dawn :) (Sorry for rambling)
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Rish-36-Bitch Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No it's okay. I have been trying to, and I also should have mentioned
that I take medication and that makes me have that whole "mask thing"
but sometimes I think she is. Thank you.
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AdmiralAsshat Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student General Artist
You are most definately welcome! Never accept lemons from life, just burn down life's house and be like "Remember me? I'm the one burning your house down with the lemons you gave me!" Yeah I got that from a speech
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Rish-36-Bitch Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"Give the lemons back, I DON'T WANT YOUR DAMN LEMONS WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THESE!?
MAKE LIFE TAKE THE LEMONS BACK!" Was that speech perhaps from Portal 2 with Cave Johnson?
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AdmiralAsshat Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student General Artist
YES!! Sorry I didn't remember what it was called :| I love that speech
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Rish-36-Bitch Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Lol best scientist ever
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AdmiralAsshat Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student General Artist
I know :)
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Pandapie-Chan Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013
Romano is a bit Out of Character,but this was just so lovely...
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you
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RhiVolt Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student Writer
I seriously need a Romano in my life, days like this…come so often…
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I'm sory, but don't worry, I'm here if you wanna talk~!
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RhiVolt Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2013  Student Writer
Thanks, I may take you up on your offer sometime.
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hetaliais Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student Writer
I'm like this sometimes, I don't know how or when it started, I hardly smile, one friend asked if I ever smiled, I just don't have many things to be happy about, my grandpa who raised me could die any day, my brother, a person who was pure died, me, my sister and mum were at his side as he died, my nana who raised me could die in a few years, my mum hasn't been healthy in a long time, I have pains in my body constantly, usually around my back and my chest, I get sick easy, I don't breath as well as most, don't have many close friends either, hardly anyone asks me to hang out with them, my family doesn't understand me! no-one really does, not even me, I have horrid luck, when I was ten people spread rumous saying I was pregnant because I was fat, people always felt the need to put me down one way or another
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I am so sorry! Just ignore those people, they obviously have no lives if they need to put others down~! I'm here for you!
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hetaliais Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student Writer
thank you
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AdmiralAsshat Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student General Artist
D: I feel for you man. I mean, I haven't gone through what you have. I hope you start feeling better. May God bless you. It's always the darkest days before the brightest dawn! I hope this helps you in someway. :iconhugplz:
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hetaliais Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student Writer
thank you
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AdmiralAsshat Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student General Artist
You are totally welcome :D may you have a life full of smiles that are yet to come
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hetaliais Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student Writer
I'll try
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AdmiralAsshat Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student General Artist
That's good! I can't remember who this speech was by nor can I remember the whole thing but, When Life gives you lemons, you don't take those lemons, You make life take 'em back! That's all I can remember from that amazing lemon speech :) never give up Hetaliais Be like a baus :D you be all like :iconfuckyeaplz:
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hetaliais Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student Writer
lol, I remember two funny lemon ones, when life gives you lemons make grape juice and make everyone wonder how you did it, the second one is when life gives you lemons through them at the one who gave 'em to you until they give you oranges, which is what you originaly asked for
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AdmiralAsshat Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student General Artist
Haha lol that's awesome, another one I heard was when life gives you lemons, Sqeeze them in someone's eyes and runaway laughing (which is something I would totally do) :iconprussiawinplz:
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flotus-17 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student Artist
thats exactly how I act, trying to mask my pain, just so others wouldn't worry, or just so I could try to look 'normal' infront of others. and my mom doesn't exactly 'dissaprove' of me, but everything I do for her, doesn't ever feel enough. I wish I had my own Romano ;w; btw, love the story, very nicely written :)
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you, and dif you ever need anyone to talk to, just let me know~!
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Tuesdayisdoom Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I act nearly the same...it's more like I try to get the approval of my mom, but I always seem to disappoint her. So I act happy and try to help, but now I'm giving up on that because my own friends will shoot down my advice and not even consider it now. Sure it's only a few of them, but it hurts. Hell, I was acting silly and happy during lunch and my friend threatened me because she had a headache... I was only trying to get her to laugh at how weird I was being, to make her feel better. I wasn't being loud and talkative, I was making goofy faces and doing goofy things- and I thought I wasn't going to rant XD
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Cottoncandycat12 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
It's ok if you rant~! Never hold in your feelings, for one day they will all explode out and that day is never a fun one! I'm here if you wanna talk!
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